March ,07....
Rabb, make me so usefull for other people....
Along the day I had watched many english progam even movie I saw: 2 hours with jack sparrow and I learn everything about conversation in English. I though that was interested and made me happy. You know RB, it is first time we gave homework by Prof Hadi to translate his books this semester. According my failure experience, I had missed a strategic to finished my work years ago, this time I would never make the same
thing. Maybe I really naïf, idealist dan perfect so everthings must be done by my self, must be solved alone, and never though that others can help me.. really idealist, and beyond my expectation, i had stressed, hopeless because all my work were in mess. So, I don’t know, last time He gave me conscience what I must to do, planning a strategy to face unexpectly moments. Thank God, I start to learn about my self, how to manage my life better.
March,08
Ba’da magrib…
I think to my self, just a contemplating…. manythings I had done….. its look likes seeing our face in mirror, who are we? Flash back in the past when people around , give me, how much I get advises and make me think what I have done?
I met my MR this evening and explained her that I have forced by. I though she had been accepted a reason why it happened. And we both encouraged of. I hope deep down, everythings gonna be OK and life becomes usually.
I miss her today…. My angel, I have not saw her for 1 weeks. She told me had a KAMMI’s training for 5 days, and I supposed its ended this day. I don’t know, why I missed other peoples who filled my life and I wish I can sent something to them. Ndux Ri-one cs, how are they? mb Aci and her family, R-one and E-one (both of them get Birthday tomorrow), little Abudzar (he said hello rarely), ndux`Leley ( I told her that I had dreamed JuneGeum yesterday so I really missed her)
March, 09
I knew it, both of them gave me statement. And one of them, E-one, make me ill feel bout her word” when you getting married?” there’s anything else to said? But R-one call me with his weird sound. I have failed recognized, hehe, and he spoke out frankly so I surpriced he have changed for anything. He told me that my beloved sister( N-one- he supposed that we both were team at liqoat- what a crazy man-) will be marry next weeks. Why did I don’t know? Or maybe she was forgot me? (T_T), hix..hix..hix..
More over, I have surpriced about N-one’s news that she will marry with one of leader of UKKI. Who’s his name, J-one. I didn’t know him but as same as R-one’ s opinion, i agree its really complicated about marriage between aktivis da’wah whom we were in teamwork at kampus UNY, at the same place!!! In breeding….
I wonder its horrible… really sarcatistic I spell out, but you know RB, I really "contra" , but whos know its people’s destiny from? I don’t know what will people say beyond us and according this fact (more of fact followed by ) I guess its will be legitimate to attack our jama’ah. Fhh..
This day, Sunday morning I loved. Even long time I came to the “ pasar kaget” (they said), but I never bored. This time I visiting my brother in law who have a massage stand and told him that I was forced by Mr. X and not going to advance our acquintanceship. Same with my father, he seemed relieve and give me more word. At last, he offered me seeking someone he knows, hwahaha… how kind of you bro….
Soon , I met mb D-one after Kajian in Maskam and we chat ngalor ngidul bout everything included mb Is-one’s story especially his husband Ri-one who dead last year. I still remember that day (unfortunately, I was late to know 2 day after the accident- but I heard his body would be buried and prayed for at campus those day). You know Rb, deep down my heart, I really lost whereas I didn’t know him, but when I saw the rain those morning I knew the world felt the same thing, lost Nice guy, a humble man who filled his life to served other people, his wife, his son and everyone he knew, and we has lost one of scientist. Wonderfully, I saw mb Is-one had a rigidity, really strong after. Subhanallah….
March, 14
Waiting ashar and book fair….
But it was isya, heheh…
Do you believe His guarantee, Rb? I true believe. Sometimes it seems unexpectedly, and extraordinary
(but I m sleepy) hoahhhh !O!
March, 15
Morning, my world…..
Continue my story, I was surpriced looked her came toward isya yesterday. Unexpectely. But I saw unshined face on her. What’s happen dear? That’s unusually. She was speechless and did not speak for any hours till I told bout my story, and I think it was feed back so next morning she showered me with many thing question…. Cape deee
I laughed deep down. Ohh .…I saw, that’s the problems, really complex. But I hate these situation when someone told me however I did nothing…. How useless iam…
I dislike weakness on your side, dear, its not you; nevertless I hate if you lost your entrusted to other people. As same as me , that’s horrible if we lost people’s believe.
Rabb, make me so usefull for other people....
Along the day I had watched many english progam even movie I saw: 2 hours with jack sparrow and I learn everything about conversation in English. I though that was interested and made me happy. You know RB, it is first time we gave homework by Prof Hadi to translate his books this semester. According my failure experience, I had missed a strategic to finished my work years ago, this time I would never make the same
thing. Maybe I really naïf, idealist dan perfect so everthings must be done by my self, must be solved alone, and never though that others can help me.. really idealist, and beyond my expectation, i had stressed, hopeless because all my work were in mess. So, I don’t know, last time He gave me conscience what I must to do, planning a strategy to face unexpectly moments. Thank God, I start to learn about my self, how to manage my life better.
March,08
Ba’da magrib…
I think to my self, just a contemplating…. manythings I had done….. its look likes seeing our face in mirror, who are we? Flash back in the past when people around , give me, how much I get advises and make me think what I have done?
I met my MR this evening and explained her that I have forced by. I though she had been accepted a reason why it happened. And we both encouraged of. I hope deep down, everythings gonna be OK and life becomes usually.
I miss her today…. My angel, I have not saw her for 1 weeks. She told me had a KAMMI’s training for 5 days, and I supposed its ended this day. I don’t know, why I missed other peoples who filled my life and I wish I can sent something to them. Ndux Ri-one cs, how are they? mb Aci and her family, R-one and E-one (both of them get Birthday tomorrow), little Abudzar (he said hello rarely), ndux`Leley ( I told her that I had dreamed JuneGeum yesterday so I really missed her)
March, 09
I knew it, both of them gave me statement. And one of them, E-one, make me ill feel bout her word” when you getting married?” there’s anything else to said? But R-one call me with his weird sound. I have failed recognized, hehe, and he spoke out frankly so I surpriced he have changed for anything. He told me that my beloved sister( N-one- he supposed that we both were team at liqoat- what a crazy man-) will be marry next weeks. Why did I don’t know? Or maybe she was forgot me? (T_T), hix..hix..hix..
More over, I have surpriced about N-one’s news that she will marry with one of leader of UKKI. Who’s his name, J-one. I didn’t know him but as same as R-one’ s opinion, i agree its really complicated about marriage between aktivis da’wah whom we were in teamwork at kampus UNY, at the same place!!! In breeding….
I wonder its horrible… really sarcatistic I spell out, but you know RB, I really "contra" , but whos know its people’s destiny from? I don’t know what will people say beyond us and according this fact (more of fact followed by ) I guess its will be legitimate to attack our jama’ah. Fhh..
This day, Sunday morning I loved. Even long time I came to the “ pasar kaget” (they said), but I never bored. This time I visiting my brother in law who have a massage stand and told him that I was forced by Mr. X and not going to advance our acquintanceship. Same with my father, he seemed relieve and give me more word. At last, he offered me seeking someone he knows, hwahaha… how kind of you bro….
Soon , I met mb D-one after Kajian in Maskam and we chat ngalor ngidul bout everything included mb Is-one’s story especially his husband Ri-one who dead last year. I still remember that day (unfortunately, I was late to know 2 day after the accident- but I heard his body would be buried and prayed for at campus those day). You know Rb, deep down my heart, I really lost whereas I didn’t know him, but when I saw the rain those morning I knew the world felt the same thing, lost Nice guy, a humble man who filled his life to served other people, his wife, his son and everyone he knew, and we has lost one of scientist. Wonderfully, I saw mb Is-one had a rigidity, really strong after. Subhanallah….
March, 14
Waiting ashar and book fair….
But it was isya, heheh…
Do you believe His guarantee, Rb? I true believe. Sometimes it seems unexpectedly, and extraordinary
(but I m sleepy) hoahhhh !O!
March, 15
Morning, my world…..
Continue my story, I was surpriced looked her came toward isya yesterday. Unexpectely. But I saw unshined face on her. What’s happen dear? That’s unusually. She was speechless and did not speak for any hours till I told bout my story, and I think it was feed back so next morning she showered me with many thing question…. Cape deee
I laughed deep down. Ohh .…I saw, that’s the problems, really complex. But I hate these situation when someone told me however I did nothing…. How useless iam…
I dislike weakness on your side, dear, its not you; nevertless I hate if you lost your entrusted to other people. As same as me , that’s horrible if we lost people’s believe.
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