Unshining Face Part 4 (Ending)

24 August 2009
My eyes was burned. I didn’t knew how many tears I had spilled out. Every time remembered the discuss, I mused my life. I saw my life on him several time ago. And of course Alloh gives me the answer of many things question through Kenny. I really had the same things: lost my life, my smile, my friends, love and everything.

Once again He gives me chance to find the answer. He gives what I need not I want. I knew my way, the beloved da’wah but I usually felt nothing different. I never forget what I said to my brothers and sisters : whatever, wherever, we are da’i. That’s our destiny. But I lost that’s words, I lost how beautiful friendship in Islam, something kept our soul in the truth.
I remembered how I miss them when they’re far from me. Kenny didn’t have the special thing like mine before. Faith in islam- the thing will make our life better. The thing would made us price our life- and thank to God, I found itself alone. That was really meaningful.
In our life, we usually forgot to thank to God for everything we had although a little thing--Every little thing, happiness or sorrow--. The brotherhood, together with friends : brothers and sisters are both truly made our life meaningfull. Lonelyness couldn’t change anything. I believe we will be find true love if we searching for seriously. I want to tell him everything, that there are many thing he can reach for, find the right way, how he never alone, how he can made himself meaningfully. I want to tell him that he can make his world shining up with other people, share with them and I want to see his smile, his pity dashing not his unshining face. He must be find his way and I will share with.

29 August 2009
night after farewell party
One message received on my cell phone :
“Hey.. miss, I want to say thanks for all. Thanks to heard my words and you’re right about. You know what I asked to Alloh before? “One day I wish someone who will hear my sigh, my story and He is blessing now”

31 August 2009
On my last step before left the school.
I hope someday you will be meet the right way, beautiful way, the best choice in your life, Ken, because He never leave you alone and you will smile everyday. May Alloh gives you His blessing. I prayed to.

“Bye-bye Ken, thanks for everything, you make my life so wonderful and meaningfully, take care your self. If you have time, tell about your special life again. OK?!”
I sent message by shining smiled.